Dirty water down the drain

As I was taking a shower and washing the grime from my body. I came to the realization that it is up to us as to what others see. Do they see the dirt and grime of our lives that has plagued us? Or do they see the love and light that is within us?

Jesus loves me and I love Him. I am saved by His grace. I am a Christian. I will continue to Praise Him no matter what my future holds.

When people look at me I want them to know that yes I am not perfect. I have my faults most definitely. But Praise God, Jesus knows and loves me regardless. I have turned my back on Him more than once. I have yelled, screamed, cried and begged for a lot of things that I now look back on and realize He is the reason I got through it all.

It was Him that gave me the strength to drive to the Hospital that day last June when my Husband was weak and weary from the news he had just received. It was Him that held my hand while I waited for 8 hours through the surgery. It was Him that put someone in place to take care of my children while I stayed at the Hospital day and night. It was Him that was there in that room in April when the Doctor said it was back. It was Him that listened as I weaped when he said it was Stage 4. It is Him that carries me from one day to the next.

It is Him and Him alone.