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I'm not as loved as I thought I was. I'm a little disappointed in my Q & A so I decided to draft it.



Anywho things around here are going good. Sort of. Richard and I have been bickering the last couple of days over his trip to California. It's not that I don't want him to go but as a caretaker and a wife and not being able to go with him I am worried. It is my nature ya know. He can't take his vest with him because he is traveling alone he can't lug that heavy thing around so that means no chest PT of any kind for a week. Not to mention the flight itself plus a 2 hour layover in Dallas then when he gets to Sacremento he has to ride the 4 hours to Redding to get to his Dad's. That's enough to wear out a normal healthy person. But a person that has CF and Cancer and just finished Chemo and got out the hospital for a 10 day stay. I mean HELLO.I am not a happy camper.

And it's not that I don't doubt that his family there will take care of him. But there are alot of things they don't know. Like his medicine regimen what meds he gets when he's in the hospital, what he's allergic to, just alot of things. And God forbid something happen the nearest CF center is in Sacremento so that means a 4 hour drive back the other way. I do not think Richard should make the trip at least not now maybe when I can go with him and he hasn't just gotten out of the hospital.

I know how badly he wants to go and meet everyone. Honestly I do. And I and the boys would like to too. Why can't they all come here? I mean planes fly both ways the last time I checked. And if some of them are buying plane tickets to fly there couldn't they as easily fly here. I know that it would be simpler for Richard to just fly there but sometimes do to health and other issues you have to make sacrifices.

I don't know why I bother writing this it's not going to change anything the plane ticket has already been purchased. Of course we only agreed on him going 3 or 4 days but Oh NO he's going for 7 days. How did that happen you ask? The plane ticket and planning was done after I went to bed. UGH I could pinch his head off sometimes.

If he gets out there and something happens I can't just drop everything and fly to California. I have a job a very good job. And I would have to find someone to take care of the boys. I just think that all these things should have been considered by all parties.

I don't understand why the whole reunion thing couldn't be pushed back a few days. I can take off anytime beginning on the 10th and then I and the boys could fly with him. But oh No that would just disrupt everything for everyone.

I just really don't like this at all. I don't think I am being unreasonable by not wanting Richard to travel alone. Nor do I think I am being unreasonable when it comes to his health.

We have been married for almost 8 years and I love him more than anything. Him and the boys are my everything. I hope he has a good time because this will be the last trip he makes out there alone.