Let Go, Let God

This is what I heard on Saturday while sitting around a table with 5 of the most amazing women I have ever had the pleasure of meeting.

Angie you are beautiful with the never ending smile upon your face that spreads like wild fire to the rest of us. I adore you and your willingness to try new things like Calamari. I knew I loved you when I seen the beautiful gold bag with the black lettering which read "Godiva" The love of Chocolate is only one of the many things we have in common.

Shannon just so you know I gladly will take that purse off your hands whenever you get tired of it. Hand-me-downs are always welcome here when it comes to purses. You are even more than I could have imagined. Your sweet persona is a wonderful attribute and I'm glad I got to experience it by sitting next to you while wearing a chocolate spoon on my nose. And the fact that you find Mike Rowe as sexy as I do makes you even that much more wonderful.

Kat if it wasn't for you, none of this would be possible. The fact that you are willing to open your home and your heart to us is beautiful. I now know that all my secrets are safe with you with your crazy mad skills in secret keeping. Thank you for always being there with a shoulder to cry on, a laugh to make me happy and a cell phone when I'm lost. You are AMAZING!

Lizzy my little Pumpkin. Me and you have been friends the longest. You always know the right thing to say to just make my day a little bit better. I thank you Lizzy for just being you and for always just... being. Essie and Gert are growing up to be beautiful girls just like their Mother. You have a lot to be proud of with those two and Mr. B is a very lucky man to have such an amazing lady in his life.

Lula. The person who said those words without even knowing what I was thinking when I heard them. Let Go, Let God. Ever since I heard those 4 words I have thought alot about what they mean. I needed to be reminded to Let Go of the things I cannot change, and to Let God carry my ever so heavy burdens. There are days when I feel like I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders with everything that is going on in my heart, in my life, in my family. My Faith and Love for God is strong and I know that he doesn't give us more than we can bare. But sometimes we all need a reminder to continue to Let Go, Let God. Lula you were my reminder. Thank you.

Please remember us today in prayer as we go to the Hospital for Richard to have another scan and to hear what the Doctor has to say. With him stopping treatments I constantly remember what the Doctor first told us when Richard first got diagnosed again. Without treatment 8 months to a year. That sentence rings through my head. And as we celebrate holidays like Halloween and our upcoming Anniversary on the 6th as well as all the Holidays and Birthdays that are coming up I can't help but think, is this our last one of this together? How do I fit a lifetime of memories into 8 months to a year? How do I savor all the things I love so very much about him, his voice, his smell, his touch, How? How will I go on without him? How will we go on wihtout him?

I just want my How's and Why's to have answers.