Anyone seen my silver lining?

I know it has been a few days since I have posted anything. I also know that you all are sitting on the edge of your seats waiting for the complete recap of our Disney Extravaganza. It's coming I promise.

But first... I have a few things I need to get off my chest. Just for me and because I feel like I need to give you guys an explanation of the reason for the privacy of my blog.

I don't like the fact that my blog is now private but I really didn't know what else to do.

3 weeks ago I got an email from my Ex. The boys biological Father. After 8 and a half years he wants to play Daddy. Excuse me?

For those of you that have been reading my blog for sometime and know me personally it is not news to you that my Ex was extremely abusive to me the 5 years we were together. I was young and completely stupid then.

The best thing that ever came out of those 5 years of hell are my two handsome boys. I met Richard and moved to Alabama because I wanted the best for us. And that is what we have here. The Best!

Anyhow 3 weeks ago I received said email because the Ex decided to google me. Well what do you know but my Blog was numero uno on Google search. Anyhow after he copied the pictures of the boys that he wanted and read everything he then sent me an email. I guess he figures that since my husband and the only Daddy the boys know is dying and the fact that the boys are heartbroken that now would be a good time to swoop in and play hero.

Well not on my watch. He has even gone as far as to send me an email describing our home and vehicles in the driveway to a T. I don't know if he was here or not or if he may know someone that lives here. But none the less it is very unsettling.

We have notified the local Sherriffs Department as well as sat down and had a long talk with the boys. They have stated several times that they don't want anything to do with him and that Richard is their Daddy. Jacob remembers alot from those days long ago he was almost 4. Calob only knows what older brother has told him.

I have never told them anything bad about him as I didn't want them to have preconceived notions. I figured when they got older and wanted to look him up then they could get their own idea of the person he is.

I feel awful having to put my children under even more stress.

Richard's pain has started to progress a little more now on the left side. He has also been experiencing some pretty severe nausea. He is also very stressed out about all this as so am I.

I would like for you all to continue to pray for our family. We go Tuesday to meet with an Attorney to proceed with Richard adopting the boys. The Attorney thinks we have a very strong case considering that my Ex has had no contact with the boys what so ever in all these years. As well as because of all the abuse and the things that Jacob remembers. I know that we should have probably done this years ago. I don't know why we didn't. The boys are ecstatic about it and look forward to all of us having the same last name.

I just pray that it goes by quickly and that my Ex doesn't contest it otherwise it will be a long drawn out process.

As a Christian I can forgive him for the terrible things he done and all the mess he put me through. However I can't forget and I will do whatever I have to do to protect my children. I know that over time people change but I am not willing to take that chance regardless.

Sorry for this long post but this is why I haven't been around much lately.

Much love to you all and many blessings!