Still believing in Miracles. (changed title)

First off before I get to the report of what we found out today. I just want you all to know that I love you and we could definitely feel the prayers that you guys sent our way. Thank you.

The report from the Doctor was not good. This seems to be regular occurrence. ha

Ok sorry I shouldn't make jokes.

The report of the scan was not good. Richard has been experiencing some pretty bad back pain here lately. It is because some of the smaller tumors have come together to form a larger mass. This mass is pressing on his bowel. It is wedged in between the muscle and the bowl on the lower right side. So this is what's causing the pain.

The Doctor is going to have a conference with the Radiation Oncology team to see if Radiation would be an option. Although Richard has said that he doesn't see the point in doing the radiation simply because that is just one tumor and there are several others. Also there is a lot of risks involved with it being so close to the bowel. So we're just gonna wait and see. Richard says the pain isn't unbearable but he definitely knows it's there.

All of the others have grown a little we didn't expect a big difference in the growths since it has only been about a month since the last scan.

Also Richard has been suffering from a terrible headache that he has had for 13 days now. Sometimes the pain is so bad he feels nauseated. Nothing he has tried taking has offered him any relief. It is there when he wakes up and there when he goes to bed. All day everyday for the past 13 days.

So the Doc has scheduled him for an MRI next Friday the 19th at 8Am. Please remember this date. We are concerned but pray that it is nothing. Don't know when we will get results back. But I'm guessing it will be the next week and the Doctor will call us to give those results to us. So I will let ya'll know when I know.

The good news is that the Oncologist doesn't want to see Richard again till April 16th unless something happens between now and then. We will then repeat this process all over again.

Ephesians 1:11, 12 says this:

In Him we are also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of Him who works out everything in conformity of His will in order that we, who were the first to hope in Christ, might be for the praise of his glory.

It continues to be His plan for our lives and we will honor it and Praise Him for it.

Thank you guys again.

I think I am going to try and get my Christmas tree up today sense I am home. Maybe it will bring me out of this funk and make me feel the Holiday Spirit.

We'll see.

Send some Prayers, Good MoJo, Thoughts Etc.

(yawn)

Does 5Am always come this early?

Just wanted to ask you guys to remember us today in your prayers.

I can't thank you guys enough for being here for me, for my family, for uplifting me when I am low, for crying with me when my tears spill out into my blog, for praying with me/for me.

Ok before I go getting all mushy it is way to early for tears.Love you guys bunches!

Alright I have got to go tame this hair and put my face on.

I will update as soon as I can.

Emmanuel... God with US

I know I haven't blogged in a few days. Thank you guys for checking on us. I guess I just needed a break. A break to be able to comprehend the remarkable gift of this unbelievable trip (did ya'll see all those wonderful comments I think there's like 97 of them now. You guys really know how to make a girl feel special.) as well as the gifts that we have received in the mail. WOW!

I felt the weight be somewhat lifted off of my shoulders. I have paid all of our bills for this month except for 2. Which I plan on paying this Friday when I get paid. Then I will be done for the month. Another WOW!

I know that what we received was for Christmas. But without lights, water and food that's not much of a Christmas. I have done some shopping. Ok very little shopping. I plan on doing a little more this weekend. I have also come up with ways to cut back on family gifts. All my SIL's and BIL's are going to get a tin of homemade cookies. When I find the time to home make them.

Right now it is all about the boys. I want this to be a Christmas that will wipe out all the bad memories 2008 has held for us. Because quite frankly it has pretty much sucked. The trip to Disney couldn't have come at a better time. Even though we are waiting until March to go. It is the greatest Christmas present we could have ever received.

On Tuesday we will be going to meet with Tonya. She is a professional photography that has agreed to take pictures for our family just because she wants to do this for us. So that our memories will live on in the pictures she will take. She is wonderful and I am beyond thankful to her for such a gift as this. And she blogs. yep she's my kind of gal alright. Don't worry I will be sure to share them with all of you.

I have been very emotional lately. The outpouring of kindness and love for our family from people that we don't know has been a remarkable humbling and unbelievable experience. I am still pinching myself over it all. I knew that angels existed, I just didn't know they were this close.

God is So Good all the time., all the time.

All that is within me cries

For YOU alone be glorified.

Emmanuel... God with us.

I have also been a little more emotional because of Richard's up and coming scan on Thursday. I don't know why. It's all somewhat routine to us now. It just doesn't get any easier. Getting there at 6am for labs then the scan at 7 then we see the Doctor at 8 and hold our breath while he delivers the news. Please pray for some kind of good news. Whether it just be that the tumors stayed the same and that there is no new growths.

Emmanuel... God with us. And He is GOOD!

I've got some Pretty Special Angels.

As I sit here 20 minutes after receiving the most amazing phone call, tears still continue to fall freely from my eyes.

20 minutes ago I was on the phone with my MIL and we were talking about this and that. And she was asking what we were going to do about Christmas for the boys since things have been so tight. I was telling her how I had gotten a couple of things and how they mainly need clothes and not really anymore toys. But that after the first of the year with our Income Tax money we were going to take some of that and go to Disney World. Because that is something the boys have really wanted to do and Richard wants to be here to do it with them. To experience the Magic of all that is Disney.

At. This. Exact. Moment. My phone beeped. I kid you not.

The friendliest, sweetest voice I have ever heard was on the other end.

She proceeded to tell me that we have some VERY SPECIAL ANGELS that love us and are inspired by our faith, strength and our hope. And that these special angels have paid for us to take the trip of our dreams to go see Mickey for 7 days and 6 nights. An entire week. I was hysterically crying. Richard kept peeking around the corner in the kitchen to make sure I was ok. I couldn't speak all I could get out was. "Please just give me a second. I just need a second" She was crying with me. She went on to tell me that everything is included special hotel accommodations for Richard as well as a wheelchair or scooter if he needs it when he gets tired and winded from walking to far. Also extra money for gas, food, photos and souvenirs for the boys.

I am shaking still and in shock.

After the phone call I went into the kitchen where the Hubs was and I called the boys in there so I could tell them all at the same time. Richard started crying. Jacob was crying, Calob was screaming. We had a very long group hug. Richard said God always has a blessing and Jacob said Merry Christmas Mom.

So as of right now the date we will be leaving will be my Birthday and we will be coming home the weekend before Calob's Birthday. I couldn't think of any other way that could possibly be more special than this to celebrate our Birthday's.

I don't wish on stars, or make wishes with Dandelions.

However I do Pray, God hears and sends Special Angels.

I don't know who you are. But I hope you know that my family will be eternally grateful and we will always remember you and we love you for making our wish come true.

God Bless!

Dreaming of The Lion and The Lamb

So as I was fixing to go get my shower. I walk by Calob's room and what do I see him sleeping with his school clothes still on, hoodie on and reading none other than...

His hand was still on his page he was reading when his eyes closed.

My boys love to read. Especially Calob. There are 2 bookmarks in this book because both of the boys wanted to read it.

Just thought my fellow Twilight Fans would appreciate this picture.

Daddy's little Buddies

So about a month ago with all the talking the Hubby and I were doing about the very fast approaching Christmas Holiday. Richard mentioned that he would like to give the boys something just from him. Something special that they could always have and know how much they mean to him. Something with meaning. A trinket, a treasure to remember him by and to know that they are always loved whether he is here or not. Just for them to know how very much he loves them and is always with them.


So after some thinking and talking and some more thinking. I sent Shannon an e-mail to ask her about the person who made her lovely initial necklace. Shannon was such a great help and gave me all the info I needed to stalk I mean find this lovely person.


Kristen has been truly wonderful. Richard knew what he had in mind and then I deciphered it and between the three of us we came up with something that is wonderful and more than I expected. She makes beautiful jewelry and if you are looking for that special gift for someone look no further than Kristen's Etsy Shop.


I can't explain the bond between a Father and their Sons. It is something I will never understand. The football watching, the rough housing, the talks about little girls, teaching them to ride their bikes, watching them play games together, all kinds of story telling about school and when Richard was a kid. Just the love that illuminates from the 3 of them. Hearing him getting on to them and then 2 seconds later them yelling from their beds where they sit in trouble "I love you Daddy" Oh how it melts my heart when Richard yells back

"I love you too Son, whole bunches"

Thank you so much Kristen for giving my boys this gift to cherish... always.

Hey ya'll

I can't write much cause this is just so special and it leaves me speechless.

Go here and read what Kimberlee has written about us, her second family.

I love you, Carrot!

Always your Peas.