Thursday, October 16, 2008

6 things...

So my great and wonderful friend Shelley has tagged me. I am supposed to list 6 things that make me happy. So here goes...

#1 The hugs, kisses and I love you Mom from my ever so sweet boys.

#2 Snuggling with my honey after a long day and just feeling him all wrapped around me and close. If only I knew how to bottle it up.

#3 Believe it or not my job makes me happy. Crazy I know but I work with some wonderful folks.

#4 Ben and Jerry make me very happy with their Coffee Heath Bar Crunch. Mmmmm Yummy. I need to make a run to the store soon, very soon.

#5 Dark Chocolate anything makes me a very happy woman.

#6 Oldies but goodies. Otis redding, Percy Sledge, Melanie Safka, Janis Joplin. Oh the list goes on and on. I should have been born long before 1980.

I'm supposed to pick 6 people to do this. I've never been one to play by the rules. Soooooo...

TAG YOU'RE IT!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Thank you!

You all have touched my heart today in ways that are in-explainable. I have cried alot while reading every comment and every e~mail. You guys are wonderful beyond measure. Thank you for your love, thoughts and especially your prayers as we continue this journey.


I'm ok, we're ok & no matter what...
it will all be ok.




Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Proceed with Caution & Tissues

I thoroughly enjoyed the day at SITS and getting to know some of my fellow SITSta's. I hope I didn't miss anyone with all the comments I left. If so I'm sorry. Also while you were here I hope you signed up for the

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This Blog-a-thon is exactly what I needed to keep my mind busy so that I couldn't think to much.
Why you ask?

Well the time has come where Richard is officially fed up and tired of doing the treatments. He made the call to the nurse today and cancelled his next treatment for Monday the 20th. He told her he was through he just couldn't take anymore. He will still have the scan on November 3rd he will also see the Doctor to get the results and to check where we're at.

I have prayed for God to prepare me for this day. For this time when the hope we had for the treatments to work is gone. Oh how I have prayed. It's really strange but the Cancer seems more real to me now than ever before. I have so many worries. If the Cancer was continuing to spread with the treatment will it spread faster now that he isn't doing anything? How far do the Doctors allow it to progress before they turn it over to Hospice? Richard wants to be at home and kept very comfortable, how will this affect the boys in the years to come? How much time do we have to make enough memories to last the boys and I the rest of ours lives without him?

Oh God I give it to you. I am not as strong as I think I am. I am only as strong as you make me. I believe in the miracles that only you can give, and I understand if a miracle is not in your plan. Your plan is Our plan and we accept it with open minds and hearts. No matter what, we will look to you and hope that people see the Faith, Love and Grace that we have because of You and that they may come to know you as the Loving God that you are. Thank you for continuing to pour out your blessings upon us. The love I share, the days I've had, the husband I've always wanted, the Daddy to my children, the days we have left together, the memories we will make... all these things are your gifts to me. I love you My Shepherd, My God, My Father.

Continuing to give You praise in this Storm,

SITS and a Shindig

Hello all! Surely ya'll all are here due to the BLOGATHON going on with my SITStas.
If you're not here via


Don't run off cause you're gonna mess out. SITS is an amazing Blog community where you can go and meet someone knew everyday of the week. Really. I'm not joking. It's amazing I tell ya.

See Tiffany was one of my very first bloggy buddies and I adored her from the very start. She and Heather are the masterminds behind SITS. They are a couple of comment junkies that do one heck of a job putting up with all of us. They are the greatest.

Through the SITS community I have met some amazing women that continue to amaze me with their continued support and prayers for my family. I know that this is a place I can come and vent about my frustrations with all that is going on in our lives and that they will continue to be here. To listen and cry with me, to laugh at my jokes, to pray when I have to say the Cancer continues to spread, just to listen. I am beyond thankful for this... my blog.

Now I have some pretty amazing friends and a few of them I have met through SITS. Here they are for your viewing and reading pleasure.

Melissa at Another Day in Paradise doesn't blog anymore for reasons I completely understand. But boy oh boy she was wonderful at it. We still keep in touch through e-mails. She is a wonderful person and I love her dearly.

Debbie at This is the Life is just amazing. I can count her for a laugh, a scripture and a prayer. She is nothing short of a blessing to me. She also is the brain behind Blog Around the World which I love in all it's amazing-ness to continue to bring us (bloggers) together from all over the world.

Next there is Lula at Lulaville. I have to admit I stalked Lula for a very long time before I ever got the nerve to leave her a comment. I just never knew what to say but now I think I could talk to her with no end in sight. Ya'll know she's like a Superstar in the Blogosphere. No really she is. Her love for Twilight is the whole reason I hope I win the crackliture basket just so I can make my Lula happy as a clam. Love ya darlin!

Then there is Melissa Lee over at Stretch Marks. Oh what can I say. She is wonderfully wonderful. She is a God loving, good hair having, wonderful mommy and wife. And I am glad to be able to call her my friend.

Last but certainly not least is Kat at Sunshine and Lemonade. I knew about Kat for a while. I read but never commented until she had the swap. Then I couldn't resist the temptation any longer. We haven't been friends very long but none the less I'm just glad we are now.

So there you have it. All of my buddies I have come across through SITS. So run on over and see for yourself.

Before you go let me tell you a little bit about my Shindig. I have decided after doing a couple of swaps that I wanted to hold a Secret Santa Shindig. I think it will be a good time for us all. So here are a couple of guidelines.

Leave me a comment here letting me know you want to participate . As well as send me an email at cferswife@gmail.com with your address and to verify your participation. You have until October 31st to do so. On November 1st I will send you an email letting you know who your Secret Santa partner is. The dollar amount chosen is $30 dollars. This DOES NOT include your shipping cost. You may spend more if you like but be advised that your partner may not. All gifts will need to be shipped out on December 12th no later than the 13th due to some of us that work and can't get to the Post Office during the week.

Your gifts can be store bought or handmade. I know alot of you are very crafty. All I ask is if you make something just be sure that it is sufficient to the $30 dollars.

Due to the cost of shipping internationally I would like for this to be US residents only. But if any of you are willing to ship Internationally please let me know and I can plan accordingly. From my experience I sent a 30 dollar gift to Canada and paid 25 dollars shipping. So if you are willing be prepared for that extra cost.

I think this could be loads of fun for everyone and I have allotted plenty of time to be able to get gifts here and there and mail them out in the time requested. Please do not participate with the mindset of getting without giving.

And lastly I have created this button for you to post. The more the merrier. And for a little added incentive the person that refers the most people to the Shindig will receive a special gift from yours truly. Just have them to let me know that you sent them when they sign up.

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MANY THANKS TO EVERYONE THAT HELPED ME IN THE BUTTON MAKING PROCESS. IT TOOK A WHILE BUT I GOT IT DONE YA'LL. DON'T YOU JUST LOVE IT.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Help?

I need help to creat a button for the Secret Santa Shindig. Do you know how I can go about doing this. I haven't a clue.

Please a little help.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

It just keeps on

Ya know that saying when it rains it pours. Well at my house we have had tornado's with hail and monsoons. Ok not really but that's how I feel.

In the past Month I have now been to Children's Emergency Room 3 times. Yes 3 times. I have gone so much I should get like frequent flyer miles or a two for one discount, something.

Last night after Mr. poke my eye with a stick got a shower. Him and Oozy arm big brother were watching a movie. Calob comes in the living room complaining about blurred vision. I know go figure right. So we go into the bathroom to take a look at it and it was nasty gross. All glazed over with some kind of greenish colored mucus. I mean it looked like a Halloween costume eye or something. So we make a trip to the hospital. Let me just ask... Why do things happen after every after hours clinic is closed?

Anyhow we head on down there at 9pm on a Saturday night. Screaming sick kids everywhere. (The amount of germs contained in such a small confined space had me very freaked out as to what I might bring home to hubby.) I knew it was going to be a very long night. We wait and wait some more. Finally got to a room around midnight. Doctor says "why did you wait so long to bring him." Oh that just rubbed me the wrong way. So I proceeded to tell him that we rinsed his eye thoroughly with water and he wasn't complaining about it hurting. It was just a little bloodshot on the one side so we figured it was fine.

So the doctor proceeds to rinse it with a huge bag of saline solution then he puts these drops in his eye that make it light up this bright neon yellow. It was pretty cool. Then he looks at it under a black light and you can see all these little specks over where it is bloodshot. Calob scratched his eye up pretty good. The mucus is where it is trying to cleanse itself. So he gives me this tube of cream that I have to put in Calob's eye 4 times a day for 5 days. If it continues to drain and tear with the mucus, come Tuesday we have to take him to his regular doctor. So needless to say after a stop by Taco Bell for some late night tacos with my little man we got home and in the bed around 2:30am.

Great and wonderful. His eye still looks really nasty today and it keeps on running down his cheek.

Let's recap shall we...

So now I have a husband with a rash that is extremely uncomfortable due to the treatment he is doing for his cancer as to try and buy us some more time together.

An 11 year old son with Impetigo that continues to ooze and look nasty and that we are having to bandage and wrap to try and get it to heal after having the shingles from a fall he endured at School because some kid thought it would be funny to trip him with his arm that was in a cast while he ran around playing touch football.

And my youngest fella now has a mucus covered oozy eye caused from him poking a stick in it while trying to climb a mountain looking for caves with his older brother and cousins.

So it continues to storm here. Would you like to come visit?

We promise you'll have a great time and none of it is contagious.

(Hint to the hubby... my friends would really appreciate pictures of all this. So I really need a knew camera since my other one broke. And I'm real sorry that you almost got electrocuted while trying to fix it but I really, really need another one soon. I'm having withdrawals and my cell phone pics just don't do any of it justice. Just thought I would mention it since our Anniversary is right around the corner. I love you baby. Muah!)

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Finally...

I managed to talk Richard into getting out of the house.

My MIL, FIL, 2 SIL's and nieces and nephews went camping. they wanted us to go but I know that was a no go. but I did manage to talk Richard into going up there and spending the day. We had a very nice visit and the weather was perfect.

Although my youngest accident prone child managed to fall on a stick that he was holding mind you and stab himself in the eye. My nephew Rowdy came running and carrying on and we all took off down to the playground to find him but my FIL had already picked him up. I was scared to death all I could think about was his eye on the end of a stick. But he's fine now. We rinsed it with some water and made sure we got all the dirt out of it. It's a little swollen and really bloodshot where he scratched it with the stick. He can see so we'll keep an eye on it and make sure it doesn't get any worse.

So we had a beautiful day out with a little excitement.

It was wonderful.

And thank you to my Hubby for spending the day with us and making memories for everyone even though you don't feel the best. I love you so very much.